Just when you think you have it figured...

You know that saying 'live for the moment'. It's sounds so inspiring and achievable and makes sooo much of sense, right? ...but if you stop and think about it, how do you do that when you are a parent?

So much of the hubby and my time is spent on trying to make sure the kids are safe, happy and won't have to battle financially for their future....where's the time to live in the moment?

These thoughts ran through my mind yesterday, as we attended a funeral of a 32 year old father of two young kids. I looked at the widow, staring blankly at the casket ( as is customary in our culture, the family sits alongside the casket, whilst family and friends come to pay their last respects). She looked blankly at her husbands body, and one could see that she had cried all the tears that her body could muster. I wondered, had they made the most of the time they had together? Were there regrets? Or things left unsaid?

During the drive back home, all these thoughts made me self-reflect....what if something (God forbid) had to happen to either myself or hubby tomorrow? Such morbid thoughts, I know! But that's what funerals do to me..once the respects are paid to the deceased and we have made peace with the passing.attending a funeral is like voluntarily putting oneself under a microscope of self analysis...well for me at least...is this normal?
It's a bit like the New Years resolution debate...you make the resolution and for the first month of the year, u stick to your guns, and hit that gym religiously..inevitably, slowly but surely the visits become sparser...until come June, they are non-existant. Same token, when we got home I resolved to make sure my family spent more family time together, less screaming matches on whether or not to wear shoes to go out, or eat Oatees for supper.

True as nuts, it took a day...just a day, for us to revert to us vs the kids....but u know what I realised?

This is our chemistry, this is what our family is all about....we love and we fight, and it's all treasured family time!